It is always a pleasure to read 21-year old wgm Irina Bulmaga’s twitter and blog. Here is her latest insight into the meaning of LIFE and appearances…
Each of us has his qualities, the sides of him he wants the World to see and to approve. Well, this post isn’t about them, it’s about our negative sides, the ones we try to hide from others and which we’re very well aware- will make others judgmental.
Though one knows his bad sides and he may work on making them disappear, I think it’s not possible to achieve it without accepting and embracing them. I can’t change all the things I don’t like about myself, but I’ve learned not to be embarrassed of them.
I show the side of me I like the least to the person I like the most because I want him to learn that I’m not ideal, nor I want to look like one. The best feeling I get is when someone loves me for my defects, not for my qualities. I believe my bad sides are very much a part of me and it’s a serious mistake to hide them from the ones I hold dear to.
They may say “I’ve never expected THIS from YOU!”. Well, I’m not ideal and it’s my worst nightmare becoming so. I’ve embraced the things I dislike about myself and while I try to change some of them, the others I just love and I want them to stay this way, because they make others give me the higher quoted sentence and when I hear it, I just know that he is just too shallow or messed up in order to admit that neither people nor life is ideal.
I don’t want to have in my life people who think I’m faultless, I want the ones who love the things I like the least about myself!
Now tell me, do you hide your defects from the ones you care the most?
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